when your biggest fear is also your biggest desire, something is wrong.
I remember laying in my bed at terracina alone wondering where he was because he wasn't picking up my calls or responding to my text messages. this went on for months and months and I knew that what i feared every single night was also the one thing I wanted to happen and needed to know for sure to give up on something that was so toxic and poisonous to me. but your keeper will never voluntarily give that to you. It took me almost 6 months to find out, 9 months to give it up.
Who did you think you were? To use and abuse love?
you are really one son of a bitch.