I know this might not last forever as nothing really ever does, but lately I've been really happy with the person I'm with. I don't feel that I've ever been so close to a significant other than I have with the person I'm with right now, and that anyone has ever come close to being as supportive as he is to me. Its our 6 months this weekend and I really feel as if we're reaching a level of stability with one another.

Accolades to my baby :) for being able to make me so happy. Kudos for being so adaptable to my high-maintenance ass. Salutes for your insatiable efforts. And Props to being the renowned Power Couple in Davis. :)

Seriously...

lately i've been feeling like getting away from everyone and everything i've ever known. Except for my loving family. The downside of knowing many people is that it creates a lot of necessary maintenance. "Drink tonight. Chill tomorrow. Don't worry about work. Call in sick." All too often. I can't do this anymore.

I lost someone close to me a couple of weeks ago. I guess it's for the best. My brain is exhausted from over-analyzing the situation. Sometimes, people do things selfishly to benefit themselves at your expense. But if that was okay with them, then it should be okay with you to let them go. Your well-being wasn't in their best interest, so why should theirs be in yours? Let it go. Let it flow. Ain't like they were irreplaceable.

Well spring is finally here. I'm kind of wary about what it has in store for me. It's about time to go out into the "real world." Whatever that means. To say that life after graduation is what the "real world" entails, is to discredit everything real I have experienced in my life prior to that moment. Frankly, to me, that's bull...shit. I've been through a lot of real events that evoked real emotions in my heart, burning real memories into my brain and developing real skills within my existence that can and shall not be overlooked, so ya'll should quiet yourselves down.

On the other hand, slowly the sun has been reaching down to embrace each day a little more. My spring wardrobe is about to make an appearance, and I'm super happy. I refuse to let my life be an endless cycle of work-eat-sleep, so I will be making little dates with the sun and its shine. :) I'm looking forward to picnics, beaches, boating trips, hikes, and lakes. Warm evenings with some lemonade, a couple of 40s and barbeques, while chasing away the bees. Won't you join me on my lazy afternoons? :)


At the end of the day, it's the memories that remain anyway.

Why do I look for sanity in all the wrong places when the cycle of getting fucked over catches up again?

A bottle of Cabernet.
All the wrong people.
Voluntary solitary confinement leading to
A period of missing in action.

This is no way to go about things. Predictably unpredictable me, where will I let my emotions carry me next?